i feel like shit all over. she still doesnt belive that i luv her more than anything in the world and she still wont give me a chance. but o well i wont give up. 3 months maybe 4 or even 6 hell maybe the rest of high skew i will still be by her side trying. ill still be making her mad, making her cry, making her laugh. my world right now is filled with lonelyness i need sumone to be there to fill it up with happyness she doesnt know that could be her. on top of all this i have family problems its my dad i dont know if hes doin to good but i always find away out of sadness but this one might take a while....

[	mood	|	bored	]
[	music	|	blink 182	]

im sooooo bored im spending my friday nite in the house....i hate this house

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YET AGAIN!!!!!!  i lost track already and i joined at 4, wut is it now 6 or 7

FUCK FUCKING U!!!!!   IM DONE!! and u prolly dont care cuz thats wut it seems like

[	mood	|	mellow	]
[	music	|	q101.1	]

i havent done this in a while. but i was at the fair a couple days ago and it was fun cuz i acted like a homeless person and got 22 bucks.lol.

[	mood	|	calm	]
[	music	|	matchbook romance	]

to alyssa....doesnt this fit perfectly thats why im deticaing this song to u......

What would you say if I asked you not to go To forget everyone forget everything and start over with me Would you take my hand and never let me go promise me you'll never let me go And now the stars aren't out tonight but neither are we to look up at them why does hello feel like goodbye These memories can't replace These wishes I wish and dreams I chase Take this broken heart and make it right I feel like I've lost everything when your gone Left remembering what its like To have you here with me I thought you should know Your not making this easy I never thought I'd be the one to say "Please don't, please don't leave me" Take my hand and never let me go Take my hand and never let me go Promise me You'll never let go Make this last forever....

[	mood	|	cold	]
[	music	|	box car racer	]

I havent updated in a while. but ill tell u sum things that happend lately i almost got arrested cuz i got into a fight wit to kids, got my heart ripped out and stepped on like at lest 5 times ove the last 3 days, went shopping, did nuhtin, and thats pretty much it.

[	mood	|	bored	]
[	music	|	Q101.1	]

Today i had the first day of summer school. but its cool. i have a hott teacher. lol. shes 24 and a blond. but any way i had baseball today we lost 6to 5 alyssa came but she left right befor i played. the other day alyssa called me kevin. lol. i dont know if thats bad or good. but it was funny.....

[	mood	|	hungry	]
[	music	|	new found glory	]

today was cool. today was the first drum line practice, that was sorta cool. all we did was tune the drums. then after that i went to a beach boys concert that turned out better than i thought. we were in the lawn area were u bring coolers and blakets and stuff and pretty much camp out while u watch the show. there were so many drunk people there lol it was funny. on the way home we took a pace bus to get to our car and after waiting in line for a half hour to get on the bus the bus broke down on the side of the road with no AC. omg was it hott then another half hour later the other bus comes to switch and then we finally get to our car and then me and my sister stopped at 7 11 to get slurpies and now im here drinking it. i think im goin to bed soon tho. laterz.

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I forgot to update yesterday so ill do it know. yesterday i did nuthing i stayd home allllllll day and watched tv cuz no one was home or they had to do sumthin. so that was my day yesrterday.

Today was a good day. i went to mineke wit nick and got kick out cuz we did so much shit. first we just went down the slides head first so they just made us sit out. then we kept doin it then they told us to sit out again and were like no and ran over to the diving boards. lets see there we got introuble too. we jumped from one diving board to the other and then like splanshed the life gard and landed on little kids and stuff. so then we went over to the slides again and went down at the same time and by then all the life gaurds were out to get us. so then we got kicked out. then an hour later i went bac wit jeni and this one dude that was fun cuz we put a candy bar in the pool and every one freked out.lol. and we had a moutin due code red fight and got all sticky. later i went home and took a shower and ate pizza. then i went to alyssa's house and that was alot of fun cuz we went to her friend carolyn's house and there i found a fart mechien and omg i had fun wit that and on my way home i saw a homeless man hoping a fence and i think he growled at me. lol.

[	mood	|	pissed off	]
[	music	|	matchbook romance	]

Lets see today i didnt have skew so i slept in till like 10. i watch cartoons all morning then went to the sk8 park wit nick. And later i have to go to my grandmas house cuz of this lady i dont even know died cuz shes like 100 years old so i have to go and feel sry for them its so gaaaaaay. when i get bac hopefully i could hang out wit alyssa and she could cheer me up.